Giving Up Hiding! Hi, I’m Margie!

Hi, my name is Margie, and I am the author of this blog. This Whole30 challenge has opened a window and let some light into the hidden places of my mind. It has just been 5 days since starting my Whole30 challenge, and already I am having some clarity on how I should be approaching these food demons.

I have hidden behind anonymity for over a year now, and this isn’t the first time. There were blogs before you. It is my desire that this be my final blog. The one that will go on to help and inspire others to do the same. Hiding doesn’t really accomplish anything. It may make you FEEL safe, but once you take a step outside, you still have to deal with what you were hiding from.

I just posted my blog publicly before over 1K people who live mostly in my community. I think I have hidden because of my weight–fearful of what others would think if they read that at my highest I weighed 330 lbs (at least). Well, it isn’t like they don’t SEE me. They just don’t know the number and knowing that number, does not change who I am. Well, now they can see it, but they can also see my burning desire to do something about it, and the journey that I take (and have taken) to overcome the thoughts and fears of my past that have become monsters that make me hide–covering myself with layers and layers of fat.

It is time that I approach life head on. No preparing in advance. Living in the now, for today–not hiding at home preparing for what COULD happen a year down the road. THIS IS TODAY…I AM MARGIE, AND I AM WORKING TO SHED A WHOLE PERSON.

I really appreciate your support. You have no idea just how much I will need it over the course of this journey.

Advertisements

3 thoughts on “Giving Up Hiding! Hi, I’m Margie!

  1. Margie, knowing the number doesn’t mean squat to anyone with half a brain. Ok, your out there. You have come out from the hiding place where you feel you have been. You have confessed your sins and now it is time to leave the self descriptions behind and move forward. DONE ! NO LOOKING BACK ! I want to know where you are today, on your journey. Are you progressing or regressing? Your in the last week of your Whole30. Where do you go on day 31? Tell us how you are going to keep moving forward.

    Like

  2. Hi Margie. I’m Laura. 🙂 I think it’s wonderful you aren’t “in hiding” anymore. That’s a huge & exciting step! I used to be the same way. I would never want to tell people my weight, but one day I made myself, and it was strangely freeing. My heaviest was 312 lbs. Right now I’m at 225 lbs, and with each pound I lose the easier it is to say. I used to (and still do a little) feel the same about running/jogging. Where I live I’m pretty sure everyone runs, and most people seem to be in good shape, so for the longest time I wouldn’t even try to run because I was too ashamed about all my jiggly fat. But then I just took the plunge and ran anyway. And that was freeing too. The more chances I take, the more times I face my fears, the more free I am. I think the same will be for you. 🙂

    Like

    • Laura, I have battled some of those same fears. I decided I may make a shirt that says something like, 330 NO MORE! Most people would celebrate with me and not focus on the fact that I have more to lose, but instead, celebrate what I’ve accomplished so far. What would your shirt say? 🙂

      Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s